let me take the test:
do you drink alone?: sometimes
have you ever blacked out when you drink?: yes
do you ever drink out of bordem?: yes
has an employer ever told you, you might have a drinking problem?: yes
have you ever been to a 12 step program?: yes
does it take a lot for you to get drunk?: yes
Do you ever drink to relieve stress?: yes
has a love one ever told you that you have a drinking problem?: yes
You see, I told you I wasn't an alcoholic!
look at my reasons for each question:
do you drink alone?:In my early twenties I used to drink alone, mostly when listening to tapes and cds at home or playing guitar. But nowadays though, I only drink alone in a ritual known as "pre game"- where you get buzzed before you show up so you spend less money and arrive at the spot nice and loose.
do you ever black out when you drink?: It's usually under the same set of circumstance- the holidays or a celebration. The last time I blacked out was the new years before last (i was in Austin and half sick and we rode bikes around the city in the cold. It was surprising because I didn't even drink too much). The other time before that was around Halloween nite three years ago- after the second party the last thing I remember is making out with a plutonic friend and then waking up sans clothes with her in bed in the middle of the night. Opps!
do you ever drink out of bordem?: When I'm socializing with people I can't stand and I need some kind of sedative to numb myself enough to be motivated to interact with them or atleast just to be able to stand sitting through listening to their meaningless conversations.
has an employer ever told you, you might have a drinking problem?: When I worked at HISD, Dr. Wethington asked me if had drank anything before showing up to work on the day after Halloween (diff Halloween). I still reeked from the poison girl shot I took at two in the morning. Opps! She then took it upon herself to take me into an empty meeting room and pry into my personal life. She was so incredibly out of touch too. She cluelessly told me (self appointed counselor style) that I should find new friends, to which I replied: "But, Ive been friends with them since I was a kid! They're some of the best people I know!"
have you ever been to a 12 step program? In high school I was making honor roll and dating the most beautiful girl in school (much more on her later) and I got busted purchasing grass when I was working at Charlie's Hamburgers. My mom told me I could either live in a halfway house or get sober and go to PDAP. I relaspsed when I graduated highschool after being sober over a year long. I didnt have a drug problem. My mom had the drug problem- a problem with me taking drugs. I was doing just fine before she made me disown all my friends. When I was a sophmore theres a photo of me on acid while getting an academic achievement award from Melanie Lawson (see photo).
The last time I went to AA was like five years ago. This was around the height of my drinking ( I was working at Brasil and living behind Poison girl and was single). I hooked up with someone drunkenly and spooked myself out. My parents were also in the midst of getting a divorce and the triplets might have been about three years old. It was the hardest/scariest time of my life (the Bush years). Everything was flipped upside down. Nothing was working right. I needed something to latch onto- some stability. I had problems, but they werent all directly attributed to drinking. I went to like six meetings in the span of a month and stayed sober. That night I got my month chip they called on me to share. I remember talking about how I was upset Katie was getting married and how I also felt like a selfish bastard for being upset about Katie getting married. I also said AA seemed redundant to me and I would probably be drinking soon and how it would probably be my last meeting. That was my last meeting.
does it take a lot for you to get drunk?: If you want to imagine what I look like drinking think; Val Kilmer in Tombstone.
Do you ever drink to relieve stress?: When I got picked up from the airport in Sept, they couldnt drive me to the bar any faster. It seemed to take forever for the bartender to get me my Gin and Tonic. I was on my second one mentally, when I was only half done with the first. I had to maintain my game face, it was showtime- it was a woman.
has a love one ever told you that you have a drinking problem?:my mom; and that so doesnt count.
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